Thursday, January 12, 2012

THREE

The number has been significant and meaningful to me as a Single for Christ. I believe in the Holy Trinity with God the Father, God the Son and the Holy Spirit. That's the foundation in me, my faith.

It has been 3 years that I graduated from the Christian Life Program that I attended merely for the reason of having something or somewhere I could spend my time if not at work while away from home. It turned out, God brought me where I am to know my second home - the SFC specifically chapter CC1A.

For the 3 years that past, I have grown as a person and as a Christian. My passion for service has evolved from just a member to one of the leaders. It was bothering at first when some sisters or brothers in the community who are older than me calls me Ate but now I get used to it. Our chapter is serving at the parishes of Nuestra SeƱora de Gracia in Guadalupe Viejo, Our Lady of Guadalupe National Shrine in Guadalupe Nuevo, Saints Peter and Paul parish in Poblacion Makati and Saint Mary john Vianney in Kalayaan. The concentration so far is at NSDG and trying to build connection in SPP and OLG.

Many people had come and go in our chapter including Ate Marian and the other people that had to be in CC1E during the split-up. The chapter has grown a lot too. The ideas, the activities and the resources we have are dynamically changing and continuously a work in progress. This 3rd year of mine, our chapter was put to a very difficult year. It was indeed a battle that God knowingly had let us prepare through the ICON in Feb.

Aside from the chapter which was struggling, I myself was struggling towards the end too. There goes again the feeling of nobody or that I don't belong. Maybe that was just affected by my personal struggles too but then God showed to me and my chapter that He is our Stronghold during the MMC in July. Although I have God and I know He won't forsake me. I've created that detachment in me from the chapter (my second family) because deep inside I'm hurting knowing that someday soon, I'm gonna leave them and no matter what hurt feelings they caused me through out the 3 years, that won't surpass the times they cheered me up, believed in me, trusted me and lean on me. And that just makes me sad leaving what I have in this 3 years.

Truthfully, I'm very happy God give my way the SFC family I have because they are some not-perfect people but totally true friends I'm going to treasure for life.

But this is not goodbye! I just wanted to say that for the many places I've been to, many faces I've seen, many stories that inspired me and many struggles that strengthen me, it is one of the best times in my life. Knowing and having that for 3 God years I have this circle of friends, this family I call CC1A, I just want to THANK YOU.

To the circle of friends: (they know who they are) thank you for standing by me through the good and the bad times in my 3 SFC years.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

MMC 2011: Stronghold

MMC or the CFC-Singles for Christ Metro Manila Conference is a yearly event attended by most of the SFCs in the Metro consisting SFCs from Quezon City to Pasay, from Rizal to Manila. It is being held every July in different places in Luzon but outside metro Manila.

I am an SFC from Guadalupe Makati and this year was my 3rd MMC. Two years ago was in Baguio and last year was in Tagaytay. This year, it was held in the province of Pangasinan specifically Dagupan City (CSI stadia).

I wasnt able to join my chapter mates in going to the venue early Friday (July 15) morning as I was still on shift, doing straight 2 shifts just to be able to attend the event. I dunno, there's a different feeling I get when I attend events like this. It's like refreshing, revitalizing and renewing.

Luckily, I was not to travel alone as some friends also opt to travel in the afternoon. We started our trip past 3 in the afternoon. Af first, I was still trying to really get a sleep because I need it but sleep was very elusive that my eyes keeps wandering on every things they see on the road. There were 3 stopovers making the trip longer. After, the 2nd stopover I finally was able to sleep (of course, not a deep one). The trip took approximately 7 hours.

When we reached the venue, we were reunited with the whole delegation of our chapter and was able to witnessed GLorEE (like the famous TV show GLEE but of course the SFC version). It was nice! SFCs really are talented. We had some photo ops before finally hiring a jeep to our accomodation. I fell asleep in the jeepney ride to the lodging house as it was about 15-min ride. When I felt the jeep had halted, I looked around and saw a classy establishment/hotel (Luxor hotel in Arellano St. dagupan City). I thought that's where we were staying but I thought wrong. hahaha

We were housed in the adjacent inn (Nel-Ars Traveller's Inn). It's affordable for around 150 per night. It wasnt as elegant as the opposite hotel but that was what we could afford. The beddings are clean and there is an airconditioner in the room. Every room has 2 occupants but could accomodate 3 to 4 people. It was okay except for the CR that dont flush well. Anyways, it was manageable. And so i got a real sleep.

Day 2. July 16, 2011 is workshop and talk day. We went back to the venue 7am to claim our breakfast (it's part of the registration fee of the conference which by the wayis 900 for the early birds like and 1100 for not). The food was care of Jam Sweet Jam of Dagupan, and I highly recommend their food. All were delicious, one of the amazing things in the conference. Sadly, they only have one branch and that is the one in Dagupan :( .

Then we have our first session talk by Kuya Aids (Adrian a CFC full time worker). His talk was about how we are wounded, tired and weary of the battle we have after the ICON 2011 and that we are there to rest, to have our Stronghold. The second Session was about Grace as told by Ate Rhea Santos. This session was so full and heavy as she told us her life story and that every thing, trial problem or blessing that we responded, that's grace. In the afternoon, we proceed to our workshops, mine was "Grace ubder Pressure". Our speaker was Kuya Voltaire. For me, he is an ideal father and it was nice listening to him. After the workshop, I realized I was under deep stress and pressure physically that I really need to go back to running.

In the evening, we had mass and then our dinner. The 3rd talk was from Fr Francis of the CBCP. That was light, I mean his talk was just full of laughter at the same time learning. His talk is actually embracing God, Jesus as our stronghold of grace. All the opening workshops and praisefests really were powerful to the nth power. Two new songs were taught "All for You" and "God of All Grace" and I really like them.

Day 3: We were instructed to be at the venue at 5am. day started with a worship and then Kuya Rob started talk 4 about Moments of Grace. We clained our breakfast but not to eat them yet. Then Kua Rob instructed u sto go to our household and share our moments of grace at breakfast. It was really happy experience for me to see my new household members in circle being in MMC for the first time and the discussion was happy, we were graced.

We had our mass after the sharing and then kuya Rob continued the talk to wrap it up with us praying over the sector and cluster heads and full time workers and lastly our chapter heads. Then we have the most powerful worship where I really cried out and cried out I did when the song "to the Cross" was being sang. It's like I was really embraced and that all sorrows, disappointment and hurt in me was released. Amazing!

In the afternoon, we payed for an afternoon tour just to be able to see the places in the province and we're glad we did. We went to the Capitol Building in Lingayen and able to get inside the Governor's office, had a look from afar on the 100 islands from the rooftop of the capitol building. Then visited the Sison auditorium, it was world class for me. The chandelier was extravagant, the CR's inviting and of course the guard, British English speaking. I forgot his name but when I remember it, I'll update it here. He was really amazing though, as in great diction. Trivia, the auditorium was supposedly our venue for MMC nut due to the huge number of delegates for aroung 3k while the auditorium can only accomodate 1500 - 2000 people. Nonetheless, CSI Stadia was a good venue too.

We were also able to buy some bagoong and alamang and some treats for pasalubong at the Malong building still at the capitol grounds. We were able to visit FVR's (ex president Fidel V Ramos) museum. That was their old house,it was simple but beautiful. Then we have a River cruise in the rivers of Dagupan. It's similar to Loboc River cruise as the concept itself was taken there. But the project has just started yet so no floating restaurants yet just the cruise on th boat and it was around 45 mins.

Then finally, back to Manila. til next time.

x.o.x.o rosehyacinth

Monday, June 28, 2010

The Vulnerability of Human

To belong in a community of the children of God where people are followers of Christ, for me is a BLESSING. They are the same people that you'll treat as family especially when you're away from home. They are the one that will pray for you at your ecstatic and down moments. They will serve as your immediate Circle of Friends.


Yes, I am blessed to be in the community of SFC and I'm thankful I found this community or I was found by this community. For the long time I've been away from home, they are my home away from home. In the community, I found not just friends but genuine friends that I know I'll treasure for life. In the community, I found belongingness. But it isn't always like that...


There was a time as well that I felt I don't belong. It wasn't because I was outcasted but more of because I outcasted myself. Human as I am, there were those unexplainable moments where I feel like I dont belong. Gladly, they were there to affirm that I do belong.


However, recently this community I am proud of, was tested. It was shaken. Conflicts arises. Conflicts caused by individual differences that led to insensitiveness to misunderstanding to coldness. It was sad. It is sad. We are stuggling, trying to fix the differences for the greater good and GLORY. Nobody is to blame but everybody has to take charge.


I think it has been human nature to express his utmost thoughts, opinions and principles on some aspects and the fact that each human being is unique makes all expressed thoughts, opinions or principles vary from one to the other. And when all thoughts are expressed, there is that comparison and inevitably the differences will most likely prevail. It is what is happening now. There are a lots of thoughts. I see, all are good and I can't tell which is the greater good. The most probable solution is that each one must compromise. Indeed, COMPROMISE is a big word.


As a community of God, I know and I can see everyone is trying to compromise. But the oppression of the reality of individual differences barred or is barring as now. I believe this is just a trial for this beautiful community and I'm hoping and praying to God that as His community, we all will leave behind the vulnerability of our being human and embrace the will of God.


So Help us God.



x.o.x.o

ROseHYAcinth